Sacred Longing

I am a religious person. Besides following a particular doctrine of external authority that is.

I know that many people are naturally religious, where relationship with the Divine is a longing in their heart and gut.

That the Divine is portrayed dualistically and as an irrational superstition in modern times means many people privately suffer. They yearn, feel lonely, feel a lack of home that worship (respectful devotion, not subservience), prayer, and relationship with the Deeper Intelligence would give them if the hyper-rational denial didn't pound them from every side.

I have always loved the divine. Before I knew what God was (as defined by Christians per where I was raised), I lived with a presence that looked out through my eyes with love. This presence taught and guided me and made me see in such a way that the urge to help (aka love-in-action) compelled me.

I have never not had the presence of the divine in my life. I never had an "awakening" to it.

How can I not be painfully in love with this world when what fills it has looked through my eyes and taught me how to see it?

And even though it is in me, accessible, the yearning to be closer is ever-present.

That yearning is what the Initiatory current is. It is us longing for closeness and what we long for longing for us as well. It is a torturous plane to navigate because being in a body and yearning for that which itself is not in a body but exists like a ghost inhabiting matter so you can feel its presence but never touch it, never have it substantiated to have the relief of felt connection, is very, very hard.

The Initiatory Path is a path to closeness. When followed it can lead to union. It takes a lifetime and not all of us will achieve that experience of true union simply because the metaphysics are what they are. But each step on this path brings us closer to the overwhelming beauty, brilliance, and love that is whatever that Intelligence is.

I know it for myself in ways that align with my own smallness. You will know it for yourself in ways that align with yours. Its mystery is that it meets us where we are and we needn't struggle with how others define it. No human can definitively say what it is and doing so is hubris.

Along the way to union we meet lesser beings that are a part of this great ecology. Those "lesser beings" include the gods themselves. So this is no dualistic insult, it is to speak in the nondual reality of the One to the many and how from the one, the many becomes more dense at each differentiation all the way to physical manifestation, where the further, i.e. more dense and material, something is from the nonmaterial One, the less power and access it has. The gods, then, are extremely powerful.

Because the layers of density are not confined by dualistic interpretation, the Deeper Intelligence is in and through all things. Those of us in material bodies simply have a harder time accessing this and we struggle more with connecting.

So we create philosophies, religions, meditations, all kinds of systems and methods and belief in attempts to deal with the reality of our density and to try to get closer.

This is an innate yearning.

And an Initiatory Path is a response to that yearning. It is the One pulling us close. Pulling us home. Not in a dualistic way. Because home is no place to travel to. It is a clearing and transforming and receiving what is already there. And it is hard freaking work to do.

But what awaits, the discovery, the intimacy, the beauty, it's mind blowing and very, very real. And for those of us who yearn, it is life itself.