Your Soul Will Keep Starving Until You Face Your Own Distortions

The World That Bent You

Distortion begins in confusion. This is important to understand as many of us have been taught to understand ourselves through the lens of “trauma” or “pathology.”

But distortion is what happens when our inner sense of the world—and our place in it—is bent, shadowed, and bullied by a system that says, “No, it’s this way.” The story doesn’t quite line up, but we adapt. We internalize the mismatch. We try to participate in a reality that never fully holds us.

This is how distortion begins.

Whether through hardship, subtle conditioning, or plain old dysfunction, we are submerged in a world that begins to disorient us. And because we do not know this is happening, we try to adjust. This is when the contortion starts. We bend around what is required. We abandon the inner compass of the soul’s whispers in order to survive what we don’t understand.

We lose the development of our root. We do not get help cultivating our center. Our felt sense is overridden.

And we fall—quietly, gradually—into performance, collapse, or control. We may call this survival. We may call it trying to belong. It doesn’t have to be dramatic to do damage. It just has to tilt us away from Life’s truths.

What You Became to Survive

We’ve been praised for versions of ourselves that were never real. We’ve been punished for being ourselves. We’ve been expected to be other things.

Expected to be easy. Expected to be strong. Expected to be clever, quiet, pretty, emotionless, obedient, charming, competent, self-sufficient, brutal, forfeiting— anything other than taught first how to be ourselves.

We’ve been rewarded for not needing, not noticing, not naming what doesn’t work.

We learned to take too much. Or be too little. To dominate or disappear. Or both, depending on the situation.

Often, this shows up as playing a role. The Good One. The Wise One. The Helpless One. The Righteous One. The One Who Knows. The One Who Doesn’t Need. The One Who Keeps the Peace. The Pathetic One. The Angry One.

Roles become costumes we forget we’re wearing—until they begin to itch.

Distortion isn’t always collapse. It can also look like confidence, certainty, spiritual language, or moral authority. Whatever earns safety. Whatever earns belonging. Whatever works.

When Grace Becomes Tough Love

We may have a felt sense or experience of Deeper Intelligence early on—something quiet, subtle, often unspoken. And for many of us, it comes as a kind of secret saving grace. A thread of something real that cuts through the noise. Something that holds.

But at some point, that grace begins to act like love. And that love begins to act like tough love.

Because saving us from the hell of contortion means requiring us to face ourselves.

This isn’t the kind of “fixing” society demands. This is the truth that feeds us saying: you will continue to starve if you do not do what is required— instead of what keeps you adapted and “safe.”

Alignment is sacred. Distortion is costly. And we get to a point where we need to grow out of it.

Where we can no longer appease our misery with “working on ourselves,” “working on the relationship,” or “working on our lives.”

We will feel the push. And everything in us will scream no—until we exhaust every other option and are left with nowhere to turn but the soul’s truth.

Your Soul Will Keep Starving Until You Face Your Own Distortions

To face your own distortions—your own chaos—is to feel what is out of order in you. Not morally, but relationally.

It’s to see where your strategies for control or survival are costing you orientation and true belonging. Even if those strategies once made you successful. Even if they still do.

Feral Power doesn’t begin with potency. It begins with devotion—often born of desperation—to your soul’s longing to be in alignment.

And that devotion begins with a clear-eyed willingness to notice:

Where does my center go when I bend instead of root?  What must I do to reclaim my soul’s voice?

This noticing is not simply to gain information. It is an initiatory act.

Each time we tell the truth about our own chaos, our own disorientation, our own contortions, we reclaim a fragment of sacred perception.

And when perception is restored, clarity returns. Integrity stabilizes. We become harder to knock off-center.

Not because we’ve armored up. Not because we’ve learned to dominate the field. Not because we’ve achieved the image of being “healed.” Not because we are performing “power.”

But because we’ve finally started to align.

Practice: Track the Tilt

Choose one moment each day when something felt off—subtle or sharp.

Ask:

• What story am I running about the other person—or this situation?

• What do I feel in my body?

• When I ask Deeper Intelligence for insight or guidance, what do I sense?

• What do I choose to do with that guidance?
  

Then notice what happens next:

• Do you reject it and play out your patterns instead?

• Do you cooperate and observe what unfolds?

• Do you choose something else altogether?
  

You’re not aiming for perfection. You’re practicing contact—building the muscle of turning toward truth in real time. This is the ground of Feral Power: not purity, but participation.

 Ready to Go Deeper?

Feral Power I: Staying Rooted in the Face of Predation is where the work begins—by tracking distortion, restoring perception, and choosing soul alignment over performance or control. This live class opens the full arc of the Feral Power Series.

Each class builds on the last, walking you deeper into clarity, relational integrity, and energetic truth.

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